Gilgamesh 4 and Final ♥♠

At the beggining of this reading you can sense Gilgamesh selfish worries of his mortal side which can die. His fear of ending his life because of his mortal side being attacked were continuosly growing reflecting on his dreams so he does a very socity thing which is go for help to the gods as religion and society teach us since we are young since superiors can do everything for us.

This fills Gilgamesh with a desire to become a god so he can be granted immortality. I would think that all this argument between the gods was to enphizises the point of Gilgamesh was remembering Endiku and thats the reason he was choking, even though they weren't real brothers, they had made a commitment to each other and Gilgamesh had failed both Endiku and himself in the darkness were he could finally accept it and understand his mortal human side.

When Gilgamesh ends his grieveing of Endiku, he still cannot answer to himself if he must also end like that, if he must also die which I think is the reason he asks why in the first place is he here if he will have to leave which is something he and the tavern keeper, Veiled, and the boatman, Urshànabi, in between lines explain to him.

"Two people, who are companions, they..."

The end of Gilgamesh from page 62 to 85 and the rest I found confussing since you see then the real Gilgamesh and how sensible he is to all that around him like death and love. I recalled how at the beggining he felt so brave and powerful but after seeing that he wasn't completly god as he thought he could get to be, Gilgamesh I believe falls into a complete depression causing Endiku to come back from the dead where he has been and save him, Gilgamesh that had been the ruler of rulers and king from kings, from himself.